Peek a boo Kitty

itsjillaine:

Is it a prerequisite to be hot if you’re going to be a firefighter?

(Source: itswasjillaine)

-being pregnant and keeping my baby

-being engaged

-having a very supportive fiance that takes care of me when i can’t work

-being one semester away from graduating

-having amazing friends

-not being a cunt

-not looking like a 12 year old

-not having a boyfriend that talks to his exes 

-having plenty of reading time until the baby comes

-thinking about my future with my fiance and baby

-being pregnant with my sister and sharing everything

-knitting

-not being a crazed cat person

-puppies

-cuddling in bed with mike and feeling the baby kicking

-not being a whore

-having a school that supportive even when health problems restrict my graduation date and let me postpone everything

-having a supportive family 

i was just thinking today about how i thought my life would be almost 5 years ago. of course i thought i’d be with rob and i wanted to be married and start having kids when i was 21. i wanted to have been moved out i wanted to be graduated and everything would be perfect. well life isn’t perfect obviously. i’m not with rob, thank god, i’m with someone better who cares about me way more and made sure i had everything i needed and wanted in the past year. someone told me when i was single that i would never find someone who wanted a baby when i did or would want to get married so soon well he wants all the things i want and now we’re engaged and expecting a baby and i’m still 21. i didn’t graduate yet but sometimes things need to be put on hold for more important things like the health of the baby and me. but i’ll graduate in the winter and the baby will be able to see my graduate and it’ll be 6 months old already. i can’t believe i’m already 19 weeks. almost halfway there. i’m moved in with mike and he’s supporting me and he’s amazing, we may fight more now that we see each other every day but we still make each other happy. and once i start working again i think things will be better all around. its fun being lazy every day not doing anything watching tv wearing my pajamas but i feel like i do nothing to contribute and that makes me feel bad for mike having to do it all working 45 hour weeks. but we can’t wait for our little baby to come be with us and we can’t wait until we find out what it’s going to be. we both want different things but we’ll both be happy either way. i just felt like writing down what i felt somewhere so there it is.

ew. nastiest coffee ever.

but i wanted to recap my amazing weekend. i’ll just ignore they 6 hours of horrible-ness. 

so i went up to winsted we went to walmart and i bought stuff for mikes room and we got taco bell and then we really cleaned his room nice and good. and then mike had a parade at 6 so i went with him and i was knitting him his camouflage hat. he’s excited about it. anyways the parade, the guys (and the girls) all wore hawaiian shirts which was pretty cool. tac 8 had a trailer with a beach on it. everyone was drinking and the guys were all going gah-gah over my knitting lol. then i didnt want to watch the parade alone so mike asked barrell if i could ride in engine 4 with him! and he said yes! that was so much fun. but he said i could only ride if i knit the whole way lol. so after the parade i met up with mike and he had a hotdog all ready just how i like it. we went to pick up his best friend Ant and then went back to mikes and started drinking. i made home made mudslides and by the time i was about to be drunk mike had passed drunk and was trashed with a capital T. so i made sure he didn’t kill himself and made fun of him all night. danielle and keegan came and she hung out with ant and i babysat mike. on sunday me and mike hit walmart again (i got my credit card friday) and then game stop and then he taught me how to drive stick! i was better than last time but i still have a hard time starting up. once i get it i am smooth sailing but i have a hard time getting there. purl came with me this weekend which made me really happy. mike has a nice clean organized room now and if its not like that on friday i’m going to kick his ASSSSSS. <3 love you baby

blaring country in the truck head on his shoulder

learning how to paddle a canoe

swimming in a lake

taking stupid pictures in a late

wearing a bandana in the jeep with the top off no doors no cares in the world

he makes me forget everything that upsets me

drinking whiskey

boots & shorts

when he has on his bunker pants and he’s all sweaty teaching little kids about fire trucks

all the firemen love me when i go get them all subway and beer

all the firemen love me cause i knit and don’t pester mike when i chill at the firehouse

watching fireworks on the top of a fire truck after watching him march in the parade

watching the excitement in his eyes when the tones go off and he rushes out the door

getting a ride home in a fire truck blaring country music

all his friends think my licking the icecream cone is sexy

they call having sex “knitting”

basically he’s just amazing but my weekends are never boring and i can stand the rest of the 4 days a week without him knowing i get an amazing weekend full of adventure and fun. i feel sexy in my bikini now and i feel confident to have fun with him and his friends and not awkward when he’s not around. i love him and i can’t wait to marry him.

so me and mike are seriously talking buying a house and starting a family as soon as i’m done with school. and it makes me so happy. i can’t believe that a year ago today i was in a loveless relationship with someone i thought loved me and was too scared to try anything. i spent the whole summer in a dark room watching tv and not doing much of anything. working but not liking it. now i have things i do things i want to do and things i’m going to do with my man right beside me and not dragging me down. i’m so glad i found him. he really brings out my true self that i’ve been hiding to make other people happy for all these year. i love driving in the jeep with my hair all a mess and coming home sunday night to purl banging on the cage at me missing me. i love walking into his house and seeing how much everyone cares about me and not annoyed by me. and i love how much i love all of them. i never felt this way about someone else’s family. i want to be apart of it so badly. they make me feel like i already am but i want it to be official one day. and most of all officially be mikes. he makes me incredibly happy and without him i’d still be sitting in my room sleeping the day away not wanting to do anything in my life. i still sleep the day away but when i wake up there is a reason now. this is going to be the best summer ever, get to see my sissy this weekend and my favorite brother in law. and going to see mammoth jack with mike and dani. and jimmy is graduating this week. i can’t even believe it i’m so incredibly proud of him. and this summer i’m going to go tubing with my friends and go wheeling and drink way too much and sleep way too little and just continue being in my love song. even when mikey leaves me for a couple hours to go be superman and i’m left alone in my pjs i don’t mind he makes me so happy and i love everything he does for his community. <3 i feel so grownup and so happy and i can’t wait to buy the house and start my family that i’ve been dreaming of forever now that i finally have someone that is giving me everything i want and wants it just as much as i do.